miss october

It turned out all well,
thank you for the lovely wishes*
It was great to have a day where i had to do nothing,
well nothing stressful

I had a great steak at squire's loft,
girly movie with ajie ( maid of honour),
Lovely day with friends,
My brand new sewing machine!
thank you syg! i love it,
Just need to attend my sewing classes
and before u know it im whipping up garments.

Also anticipating a lovely day out on the 4th,
Melbourne Cup, let the bets begin

xoxo

effin retarded

Mood: angry, upset

Ok, im hitting the young 24 this sunday.
You know,what i want?
I just want a quiet sunday relaxed, which
pretty much never happens in my life.
Not adding on to more pounds of chaotic stress in my never ending
boring routine which runs every 24/7.

I want a day where i dont have to think,
a day where i can mingle and do my own shit,
at this point, no one freaking knows what i want.

urgh! really does shit me.
I want space, much needed space.
I want to spend a day in a sewing class
or discovering new quaint alleys in the city,
I want to go for a flea market which happens on a sunday,
I want to have quiet brunch with great breakfast,
I just want a day where the house sits pleasantly & in order.
I want to go for a nice drive and see the countryside,
I want a day at the beach, just humming to my own tune,

Anyway, i dont feel like celebrating this sunday
I would rather postpone it, to the races.

blogging from bed

this is certainly an uncanny moment
Staring down on these tiny keypad,
Trying to get a word or two down.

Tom kovac was right,
We should ,take every use of
Being connected to the cyber world.
The opportunities are endless,
Who would have thought at aGe 23 and
8 days from being 24, i would indeed
Be Tech savvy.

The last time i was incline to the moving world was with my dad,
Since he left i actually stopwanting.
All talks of cars and material diminished as he wasnt there anymore for me to share.
Funny,how certain past moments make u
Change, you lose parts. People dont grasp the concept of losing, its absolutely heartbreaking, ps im not talking about relationships, those can absolutely be replaced but my dad . Well, frankly the word is never.
So they dont understand space, it works.
It works for those who need to heal.
Emotional talk, i think it hits when we are close to understand the evolving flow of human cycle......
I always thought that perhaps my life with the many punched holes have a direction. There must be a reason?
A fair , a funny reason perhaps, to test my patience, oh boy have i been tested. From accusations of bein distant,
From predicting your so called personality and style.
guess what, i am neither of those thing.

I tell u what i am a girl who works hard
To survive,
I take pride in silly jobs that i undertake,
I care more than u think,
Sometimes it s stressful to be under attack,
I enjoy my silent moments,
I enjoy just being.

This must be my words for hitting the almost beginnings of your life,
Soon 24, soon to be engaged,soon to be marrried with a freind /soul mate,
Soon my own road, haha and maybe a drivers license..xoxo

Wanting evident space to fill my void.

Its one of those days

I am extremely relaxed,

Yes, i was craving for a little bit of pleasure.

So, i treated ajie and myself for a swedish massage

by the school of natural medicine.

Ajie konked to a nap, while i was half awake.

It was funny, to hear every conversation

despite everyone being in seperate rooms.

Now, im feeling it though.

Should have dozed off into a dream.

Reality check* Yes, i have a major essay

So, start cranking on it woman!

Recap* had the loveliest brekkie on sunday

with lovely company.

Who would have thought some unrecognizable lane

would lead to a unique brunch.

Also, found lovely nick nacks along the way.

I still want that white pear* pomegrante? apple is cute!

AH yes, plus my kuali!

Recap* sunday was another lovely day.

A walk in the park & sun sun away

Recap* monday

Running about with errands*

Nice dins at Chinta ria or was it blues?

Heard the faint humm of kate perry at the prince,

damn should have gone

Recap* Tueday-today

Woke up out of my slumber,

Did laundry and tidying up.

To my eyes still looks horrible messy.

Threw out some old stuff

*Arrived* my eames lamp...all i can say is it's a giant peach

ps*arent lin's dogs cute!

True Blue

You know the feeling where you are falling into quick sand,

Slow yet the ever so torturing never ending fall,

Knowing that the day of death is coming soon.

Yeah, that s how i feel.

That is how i feel everytime now.

I dont know, what is taking over me.

This weepy annoying facade is exhuming me.

Right now:

Watching 21 items on ebay,

Smelling the familiar scent of stuff from mummy,

Having stupid mid length hair,

Frasier talking and the non watching audience,

Throbbing pain up my legs and down my neck,

My Kahlo Frida cushions staring at me,

Finally a down turn smile, showing my signs of "happiness."

Its beyond my knowledge, to be at this pinicle.

I think clearly, i need a holiday,

A new hobby, new company,

New air mostly......

It's like this art work, all of my feelings contained and solid.

*Raya with the meow meows***

**Babies on a roll**

Mood: cats , well more like dali is going AWOL.

Running up and down the used chair.

Yeah, she thinks she owns the world.

Hahaha, maybe it's every womens proposition to be on top of

the world and everything!

Now she's busy tapping her tail while glancing strange looks at me.

Funny, i have had her for i think 3 years & she's still like a kitten.

Spoilt and active, while the baby chloe is quite the opposite.

Instead she lies on her belly and sleeps like a pooch all day.

So, what did i do this raya.

It was well spent at work till late, bought cute collars for my meowsies as raya gifts.

Had coconut house curry with yong tau foo.

Pop by bouverie's raya gathering.

Saturday---> Body torned from too much movement from last night.

Pains---> The ever rising work i have, im tired*

Should i go? should i not? i dont know....

Spinning wheels & Little Squeels

Brekkie Spot: TUSK, thanks to some internet research.

I managed to find a busy/yummy spot for a nice sunday brunch.

Despite the long wait of 40 mins for my scandinavian potato stack,

i enjoyed every bit of my rostie, salmon,spinach & poached eggs.

Definately coming back again , not on a sunday and for their lunch menu the next time.

We rushed towards the Showgrounds with a lot of enthusiasm,

Plus the realization that it's not my 3rd but 4th year in a row

attending the Royal Melbourne Showgrounds.

I personally think, i could never get bored of carnivals.

It was an absolute bliss when i was 6, let alone in my 20's.

We jumped on first with rides, tee hee* in total only sums up 2!

While ajie and the other daredevils did around 6.

Did the usual show bag shopping with less bags this year.

Bumper cars was hehe relatively violent & chomping down

in the grand pavillion was my fav!Yummy cheese toast & pippin dots plus

yabbie pie. Cough* Organic Doughnut

Joys--> Dart games, i was good! not to be a brag.

I actually hit 5/6! Winning myself this funny looking duck.

I was surprised.

Shows-->The monster truck was ho hum*

But the motor cross was great! Better than it's been.

Crazyyyy stunts...by a split second , everything could

fall apart and it didnt :)

Scenic views from the ferris wheel was nice,

Though my legs felt like jelly, as usual.

Im such a chook....hehe....

Phone + Bestie = :)

A distant ring, sounds all to familiar...

Where were the days where i could hang on to

the line with friends till your ears were dropping off

and eyes dozing off. Conversations soon turning to bable ....

I cant do it anymore, i cant yap...

However, i did today. Lovely lovely call from Krys.

Made my day, Miss her* Actually i can do it with my bestie's.

I suppose theres always so much to catch on and remember.

CIMP seemed so long ago, busy bees we were.

Laughing, smilling,Happy...

Now, im just an old grump* Who wants quality time at home.

I think with all that contact hours i have with work,

at the end of the day. You just want to vege out and remain

silent, even for an hour. Talking & standing all day, is getting

to my frail body ;)

So, us ladies have made a pact to call atleast every Once a month on a Sat, seems to suit us both.

The time difference was a killer to start a conversation, which had taken a raincheck for more than a month.

EAGER BEAVER---> Brekkie ar Tusk, heard about some infamous green eggs.

Though, had funny mix reviews but hey i want to give my tastebuds a go before rating the joint.

IN LOVE---> With Fruits, major snacked attack on Gelati with Fico...yumm & Fruitti Di Bosco.

Had some mata kuching tooo...I wouldnt mind some boost.

CHANGE---> Dyed it and textured permed my hair. I know, it's my own obsession..

but hey i didnt cut, i just needed some life in that limp hair.hahaha

TRADITION---> 3 years in a row this year for Melbourne Showgrounds...

I am winning that pony & il go on my big slide...tee hee* and purchase them

great goodie bags.

I think im getting back to my blogging days. Man, im feeling rather boxed up.

Too many thought running by, perhaps zooming is more precise.

What if's ? Worries , Torment and Wanting to Know...

Isnt it always the case, for the Young 20's...

Worrying over the small stuff...well, mines slightly bigger thank small.

Tick tock, to my engagement....im so far from planning, it's gone by.

I dont know, im happy in my space and i think it would

go on smoothly :) The hype is over for now and taken by the more important

things in life, uni...

toot toot*** time to get those sleepy eyes a good rest~~

Tupperware Club

Mood: It's All about Storage for me now. Yes, im finding many ways to conceal and contain my items. It's from pencils, paper,Spices,My goodies ( chocolate ), Clothes ( the huge collection that i have seemed to breathe in), Mags...basically everything i live in.

Hahahaha, well i couldnt possibly contain my cats. They seems to be quite happy up on that old couch. Looking high and mighty.

Lately, the roller coaster i am hitting. Is going to no ends,

I am....in pain from the headache that throbs my head.

Happy moments--> Van's been hitting Melb flights very frequently,

it's lovely to have your gal pals around.

My Margerat Muer Covers, i want more of it.

So back to the obsession, Im still stuck in a rut with

organizing my clothes. I just won a bid on a wadrobe,

but with the built in one that i have. I just want everything

to be neatly stacked...

Just shits me, that everything is exposed. Yeah, Im on this compulsive mood to hide EVERYTHING.

You know, it just looks neat and clean. The room is going on minimal, WHITE!

im in love with this horse lamp, i guess when i do get the chance.

I will pop by Brunswick and scoop over to perhaps purchase it. Another thing, im looking for

are shoes boxes. Im going to take polaroids and stick em on the boxes...

Huntt....hunttt....Here we go.

Latest Buys--> Old school mini teh/Kopi glasses!

Japanese Pot

Freshener For My Wadrobe

Yummy Blueberry Yogurt

Withdraw....elllsss

It has only been 3 weeks, and i cant stand my hair being in the state it is.
Boring!
It looks so bleh, so im thinking it's time to visit Jo....
I know, im meant to grow it out and leave it long ...
But dull and limp, is just not my style.
So, im giving myself 2 weeks for the hair to grow out a little
So snippity snap , it will have to go.

Either i do a super light colour for spring or i cut,
But then im like hey! why not both.
So il do the cut then hit the colour after...

Yikes....! im totally bombarded with h/w...
sigh*

ET Home

excitement--> hah, finally i am connected to the cyber world.

Whereby the possibilities of endless connection of information,

e-mails and more posting is made a reality.

I guess despite my wanting to be unconnected to the world.

I am slightly being indenial. I miss everybit of my internet.

Ok, now im counting down to the hours i have. To turn my last weeks

"turd" drawing into a non turd drawing. I need to jump to bed.

Wake up to the sunrise and start drawing away my masterplan

of the oh so wonderful retail store ikea....oh hummmm*

The upside--> For once, having moths flying out of pockets have not

brought me to the slums. I am absolutely spicing up to it.

Ok fine, im running up bills left right and centre,but you know.

As my beloved lola says, dont let anything bother you despite the stress.

So, it's cool im looking at the new few month being a good

transition of events.

The downside--> Hitting my pillows for good short nap,

Till the next blahhhh on this page.

the season to be fasting

Wow....look at how fast another year goes by,

yet sometimes it feels like eternity for me.

Mood: Feeling sleepy

1st day of fasting

hungry? nope

thirsty...maybe slightly

unhappy....yes maybe

Anyway, the house is a mess.

Boxes stacked up like lego's,

Rubbish to be throwned out,

Useless stuff that i do not know why existed in my last place.

Happy thoughts---> Just relaxing, though i do have work tom.

Dinner still deciding, to cook or buy?

Panicky....over the amount of clothes i have collected....

Grrr* time to clean out

naming a home

Who would have thought in the 6 years,

Finding a nest/ place to call home is difficult.

Besides the rise in rent prices,

The heavy rain of bills , movers & new home products & groceries

which eventually Steal the show for savings.

Thus, leaving you perhaps on the edge of eating maggi for

the next few months.

I would like to think its rather blissful, to be in this midst of mess

as long as i have place called home.

Body----> Moving away from my engagement body and into " winter" storage,

Thank god with puasa being in the corner & the holy month vibe.

"US" the couple, should reduce our going out days to hibernation.

let's hope so ;)

wants---> Quit my new interest in .......

left to my own secret storage,

happy---? I dont know, Im piled with so much to do and so little time.

Melbourne melbourne, staying in it : gives me a free fall of on going activities and work

Kl, staying in it : gives a rise of stress from people, not having enough personal space yet having ample time to lepak and relax.

weathering winter again

It seems im never far from wandering the streets and facing all my bones
being constantly filled up with rushing cold winds.
Just in Dec-Jan---> i was experiencing winter in the states
from breezy beach weather in San Diego,
Shopping trips in our warmest gear in New York,
Beautiful & Heavy snow in Canada
Frozen bits of water in Washington DC....

Before that Melbourne winter had just ended,
Now here i am back to WINTER...my toes frozen...
Bundled in my robe like coat....
Frankly i could have a little bit of sun or atleast a longer
period of summer brushing agaisnt my skin.
;) Perhaps, i could catch some when i head back to kl in Dec.
Vietnam, Cambodia here i come

Tootsie rolling back to melbourne

ok, now im in the second stage of packing.

Which is finalising the little things that you tend to forget,

I get quite nerdy and all,

with my little list of things. Currently it's pilling on rather than getting ticked of.

OoOoPS......

Im glad i managed to sort out my other list of what to expect for the engagement.

I think im prepared to dwell my hands into all the commotion thats

coming for me.

" Mentally prepare yourself" hahaha....

But other than that.....im all packed and ready for my trip back.

Im also totally psyched that they are still showing SATC in the movies,

i mean how can i watch it all censored in kl.that's wrongggg....

After my trip to New York, ahahah im officially a fan.

IMMUNE and homeless

man....all past post in these few months seems to be all grumpy...& grumbily...

Visa finally got approved which means im heading home soon.

I dont know where is home now since clearly we're homeless at this point,

Anyway despite it im heading back with a whole new phase,

Going to love that i will be shaking in my bones ...winter breeze

Job hunting again, late night in uni again, my baby cats again ( this im looking forward to)

eating il doche freddo's, eating at thai culinary,

travelling out to do my groceries,fitzroy gym,

tram jumping and hiding, roaming the familiar streets..

licking my fingers to lovely crabapple cupcakes...

decisions

Such a wild goose chase.
Chasing after those who are meant to please,

Chasing those that you are meant to obey,
Chasing after those god damn wishes.....

mood: not amused, to a brink of no care & no emotion.

You would think that your own or collaboration of decisions

would be left there as a sign of mere support from others.

Naa.... that in due is not happening.

Instead i am unravelled into a whirl wind of too many

opposing thoughts and comments from others.

Working together? Never ..... maybe in my wildest dreams.

A sign of friendship between the union of two people is meant to bring a wholeness.

I wonder whether at a course of time, if i still had my firm father.

Whether this crazy roller coaster would take place.

I think my wishes as i had always shared with him in the past,

were never a point of argument. At the time I was given everything

but i was not spoilt. I was just merely sharing a lovely bond with

my father. One where he understood me & stood by me to make

matters better. Time passes by, and no one respects my decisions

to be my own person. Have they not realize within these years of absence.

I am my own person with simple logical thinking. My demands or rather

decisions in life are purely sane.

Marriage:

Marriage is a personal union of individuals. This union may also be called matrimony, while the ceremony that marks its beginning is called a wedding and the status created is sometimes called wedlock.

The word personal? That has not ever been whispered in

practice in my life. Everyone instantly jumps into my space

& resides there....

tinkering

"Im swept of my feet to never never land,

Land where skies shine as blue as it can be,

Hovering winds, mostly whispering desires,

Now, i lay awake just wanting .....more."

splat

show has been great! 5 more to go and im a free woman!

though i will miss doing rehearsals and the cast. :)

info on the show just go to www.ticket2u.biz

Besides that, im pullling my hair on future engagement plans...everyone is stressing me out but i guess this the reality that sometimes it doesnt come down to your own plans but others...and sometimes i dont think people realize that we need to be rational with things. I will repeat both of us need to finish our studies before actually finalizing any wedding plans

Woooo SAHHHHH!!!......