Tuesday, October 28, 2008

miss october

It turned out all well,
thank you for the lovely wishes*
It was great to have a day where i had to do nothing,
well nothing stressful

I had a great steak at squire's loft,
girly movie with ajie ( maid of honour),
Lovely day with friends,
My brand new sewing machine!
thank you syg! i love it,
Just need to attend my sewing classes
and before u know it im whipping up garments.

Also anticipating a lovely day out on the 4th,
Melbourne Cup, let the bets begin


Thursday, October 23, 2008

effin retarded

Mood: angry, upset

Ok, im hitting the young 24 this sunday.
You know,what i want?
I just want a quiet sunday relaxed, which
pretty much never happens in my life.
Not adding on to more pounds of chaotic stress in my never ending
boring routine which runs every 24/7.

I want a day where i dont have to think,
a day where i can mingle and do my own shit,
at this point, no one freaking knows what i want.

urgh! really does shit me.
I want space, much needed space.
I want to spend a day in a sewing class
or discovering new quaint alleys in the city,
I want to go for a flea market which happens on a sunday,
I want to have quiet brunch with great breakfast,
I just want a day where the house sits pleasantly & in order.
I want to go for a nice drive and see the countryside,
I want a day at the beach, just humming to my own tune,

Anyway, i dont feel like celebrating this sunday
I would rather postpone it, to the races.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

blogging from bed

this is certainly an uncanny moment
Staring down on these tiny keypad,
Trying to get a word or two down.

Tom kovac was right,
We should ,take every use of
Being connected to the cyber world.
The opportunities are endless,
Who would have thought at aGe 23 and
8 days from being 24, i would indeed
Be Tech savvy.

The last time i was incline to the moving world was with my dad,
Since he left i actually stopwanting.
All talks of cars and material diminished as he wasnt there anymore for me to share.
Funny,how certain past moments make u
Change, you lose parts. People dont grasp the concept of losing, its absolutely heartbreaking, ps im not talking about relationships, those can absolutely be replaced but my dad . Well, frankly the word is never.
So they dont understand space, it works.
It works for those who need to heal.
Emotional talk, i think it hits when we are close to understand the evolving flow of human cycle......
I always thought that perhaps my life with the many punched holes have a direction. There must be a reason?
A fair , a funny reason perhaps, to test my patience, oh boy have i been tested. From accusations of bein distant,
From predicting your so called personality and style.
guess what, i am neither of those thing.

I tell u what i am a girl who works hard
To survive,
I take pride in silly jobs that i undertake,
I care more than u think,
Sometimes it s stressful to be under attack,
I enjoy my silent moments,
I enjoy just being.

This must be my words for hitting the almost beginnings of your life,
Soon 24, soon to be engaged,soon to be marrried with a freind /soul mate,
Soon my own road, haha and maybe a drivers license..xoxo

Wanting evident space to fill my void.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Its one of those days

I am extremely relaxed,
Yes, i was craving for a little bit of pleasure.
So, i treated ajie and myself for a swedish massage
by the school of natural medicine.
Ajie konked to a nap, while i was half awake.
It was funny, to hear every conversation
despite everyone being in seperate rooms.

Now, im feeling it though.
Should have dozed off into a dream.
Reality check* Yes, i have a major essay
So, start cranking on it woman!

Recap* had the loveliest brekkie on sunday
with lovely company.
Who would have thought some unrecognizable lane
would lead to a unique brunch.
Also, found lovely nick nacks along the way.

I still want that white pear* pomegrante? apple is cute!

AH yes, plus my kuali!

Recap* sunday was another lovely day.
A walk in the park & sun sun away

Recap* monday
Running about with errands*
Nice dins at Chinta ria or was it blues?
Heard the faint humm of kate perry at the prince,
damn should have gone

Recap* Tueday-today
Woke up out of my slumber,
Did laundry and tidying up.
To my eyes still looks horrible messy.
Threw out some old stuff

*Arrived* my eames lamp...all i can say is it's a giant peach
ps*arent lin's dogs cute!

Monday, October 13, 2008

True Blue

You know the feeling where you are falling into quick sand,

Slow yet the ever so torturing never ending fall,

Knowing that the day of death is coming soon.

Yeah, that s how i feel.

That is how i feel everytime now.

I dont know, what is taking over me.

This weepy annoying facade is exhuming me.

Right now:

Watching 21 items on ebay,
Smelling the familiar scent of stuff from mummy,
Having stupid mid length hair,
Frasier talking and the non watching audience,
Throbbing pain up my legs and down my neck,
My Kahlo Frida cushions staring at me,
Finally a down turn smile, showing my signs of "happiness."

Its beyond my knowledge, to be at this pinicle.
I think clearly, i need a holiday,
A new hobby, new company,
New air mostly......
It's like this art work, all of my feelings contained and solid.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

*Raya with the meow meows***

**Babies on a roll**
Mood: cats , well more like dali is going AWOL.
Running up and down the used chair.
Yeah, she thinks she owns the world.
Hahaha, maybe it's every womens proposition to be on top of
the world and everything!
Now she's busy tapping her tail while glancing strange looks at me.
Funny, i have had her for i think 3 years & she's still like a kitten.
Spoilt and active, while the baby chloe is quite the opposite.
Instead she lies on her belly and sleeps like a pooch all day.
So, what did i do this raya.
It was well spent at work till late, bought cute collars for my meowsies as raya gifts.
Had coconut house curry with yong tau foo.
Pop by bouverie's raya gathering.
Saturday---> Body torned from too much movement from last night.
Pains---> The ever rising work i have, im tired*
Should i go? should i not? i dont know....