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What do you do on a quiet day?

Sunny and peaceful, that is what today is. However, with a cuppa of coffee i am absolutely buzzing in anxiety. Yes, not a very smart idea to having a low down on stocking and revamping my window up this week.

Several things struck me today.
1. I need my journal, this just helps me accomodate all those pent of feelings and a way to journey my way through the past and present
2. Drink 2 litre's of water
3. Healthy living , despite having my domesticated life again
(cant wait to eat my trevally with sesame and zucchini's)
4. Get on with technology in all sense, so with internet back home and blackberry services available. I should be able to rock my way through every aspect of business
5. I need a day off where i can sit and not sit in front of a computer.

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Just Realize

Lately, my rants have been merely of an obsession of how everything stinks. Yeah well few weeks ago my mood was zero but lately with all this time with me and my new regime of making myself healthy. I have started to push aside the "crap" and welcome good karma and good vibes despite being so stressed about things.

So, with a lot of courage and smiles im opting for more happiness that i can create.
Enough ranting about the bleak black pool and try to make of whatever i have.
So , in conclusion as long as im healthy, surrounded by people i love,food in my cupboard and clothing on my body & i am able . This equals to being grateful , therefore a deeper sense of peace that i havent been able to achieve in a while now.

So far much of the clockworks i thought that were dim, have started to tick again. So yes, welcome a busy hectic life from this moment till we end this year in which i am very curious to where it will take us.

Total total mood for a big transformation which generally means a haircut/hairstyle change.(hehe* been pulling my extensions out, i had major dreadlocks happening there) Ohh, and lately my current obsession is too puncture my balloon cheeks and face? what is this can old age make my head bigger!??! hehehe*
it tickles my tummy actually, small body and big head. I might start to resemble a bratz doll!

Recent chats with my girlfriends have also added more spice and delight.
The chats start to resemble the obvious. Relationships--> wedding bells
Body --> gravity is starting to push the body into dif directions, mostly downwords.
Independence,

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current song : Colbie Caillat- Break Through

Women and our space

Lately , most of the time I find myself whisked away with the noise of the droning train. In that split moment, my eyes ..mostly my thoughts fly away and land on my next movement. Paving through the streets while my toes are curled in a frozen frenzy. I feel the urge, the urge to write .I'm not much of a writer but from the time to time. I like to indulge, in a little tale of nursery rhymes.
Today, i find that it was the first time in months i had my own space maybe a year. Rather strange how in a day, the room smells of flowers. No dust on the shelves. Clothes put away, scooping away to bowls of soup and plenty of SATC to keep me company for a few weeks.
What is it with women and our way of moving around in our space. Its the complete opposite of men. In some ways i think this is why marriage goes into a dump hole. We move like preened peonies while men slumber along with a trail of socks. Hilarious but absolutely true? So, the argument of question in hand for a modern women is Do you slave yourself to him?
Taking your way into the next chapter of life. We often find ourselves whisked away during the high time of dating but honestly after the braced fingers take place.We all start whining, bickering and arguing of how the plates are everywhere and the collection of shoes soon to be named the pile of "Imelda Marcos" consumes the room. As modern generation, the first instinct is to protect and attack. Guess what? Hun, it doesn't help the line of married couples.
So what do we do? Compromise, but retaining the feminine role in which is to nurture.I mean, after all...men are big babies and at the end of the day . They want to be babied , full time! I am on for feminism but when you settle to build a family. It's your choice to make it work as it is for the partner. So, hand out your betty crocker apron and whip up your 3.5 american dream. Enjoy and laugh off the silly small stuff that sweats your head because you and him are bigger than unfolded laundry.

S.O.S

Having & humming the S.O.S song in my head, over and over again. Lately i have been hit with the "blue" bug, seriously I'm relatively chirpy when it comes to things even after getting a head lock or guillotine moment ( as sayang puts it ). Despite listening to happy tunes of John Mayer, i am stuck in jello- o. Puts you in that funny scene in HONEY I have shrunk the kids ! Put me out of my misery and hand me a giant chocolate to savour my sorrows or befriend me my giant ant so he may take me away like thumbelina and the swallow.

So far, I have managed to compartmentalize and slowly gather the piles and solve them slowly. Off course if possible, i hope it can go away by this weekend! or at least in the following week.

Back to other misc. things in my life, I find winter just puts me into a hibernation mode. As soon as light goes, I'm wanting to veg in my little bed and curl up to good old fashion TV. I should say DVD as i still need rabbit ears to get TV channels to come through. I slip on to my Jammie's, hrmmm i think tonight is a good book night and you know what . Today , I'm going to pray. I'm going to pray for my family ( all of them ) and all my loved ones.

I feel that's what I'm lacking, some spiritual thought and happiness to feed my soul.Yeah, seem to mentioning soul a lot. Scary huh? Mid life 20's crisis. Haha, not to far from 30 and lets see what i will come up with then.

You can Never Run or Hide

Turned out this trip, was my way of running away. Despite having to face my now reality, i found that in many ways this trip helped me heal my tired body and soul.
Made sure it was purely filled with what i truly needed to do, so forgive me if i havent made my time in the day sometime in the trip to book in the date.It was purely to feed my soul with the essentials

A little place called Home

Home home is where the heart is, momentarily doing some healing and work.
I would like to dream away about being at a beach somewhere, would i be crazy
to take a bus up to Penang where my cousin is at and lay in the sun for a mere day.
Im glad to have a free day and do absolutely nothing. Unfortunately, i have a small voice which pulls me back to reality.

sigh* i need to head back to Melbourne soon

A fan of the big picture

I thought i will be naughty today, indulging every bit of my jet lagged body to gather the vintage/past pictures to remind me a story of how i got here. Many of them which were off my little sister tiana, she was an absolutely adorable little bub . Yes, we spoil her rotten! Funny photos which catch you at the moment, im tempted to whip out my camera to give it a shot. My photographer eye to catch every moment of sound, laughter and tears.

I remember spending hours as a little child flipping through photos in my grandma's house and also trying to figure out an untold story behind those days of smiles.
Cant wait to have a whole series of montaged photo. I really should sleep but this must be the excitement of being home.

I LOVE THAT IT'S MUGGY AND IM PERSPIRING
I LOVE THE SMELL OF RAIN
I LOVE BEING WITH MY FAMILY
I LOVE THE TASTE OF MILO IN A CARTON AND 100 PLUS
I LOVE EATING ALL THE YUMMY ULAM AND FISH
I LOVE KNOWING THATS THERE S A DANCE STUDIO AROUND THE CORNER
I LOVE JUST BEING HOME...MOMENTARILY...chuckles*

Dont worry syg, in case you re reading. I MISS YOU LOADS TOO!!!